And the cleaning continues oh and a marriage begins

Quick correction, some of you may not be able to find flylady at .org so try www.flylady.net a blogger pointed this out to me so thought I would correct that. Thanks!

I am still cleaning up a storm and am so happy with the outcome. It feels so good to have things organized and tidy. It is really good for the soul and the attitude, lol.
I have been working on organizing and purging something everyday and it is really paying off I woke up this morning to a tidy kitchen and living room so all I have to do is make my bed and tidy my room then I can be onto the laundry room, ugh........

Now about the marriage I mentioned in my header. My daughter is now a married women. They were married by the Justice of the Peace on Monday. We are going to have a wedding for them still but not sure of the date so atleast they are legal now and can start their new lives. They have their own home now and are working hard to make it their own so keep them in your prayers cause at their age they are going to need all the prayer they can get.

Off to a funeral a dear elderly lady at our church passed away on Saturday. She will be missed but we all know she is home with the Lord and her husband.

Saturday organizing

Well I spent today cleaning and organizing my kitchen cabnets and although I am bushed I am also very delighted to have them in order again, funny how things can get so out of whack in no time.
I thought I would share with you an awesome website that is great for getting your house in order. This lady has taught me and is still teaching me how to keep all my home clean and tidy just by following a routine and doing something everyday. Please visit this web site and sign up for her emails I promise if you give it a chance you will love it. www.flylady.org share your thoughts with me when you have a look and if any of you are already flying I would love to hear any of your testimonies.

Loving my organized kitchen. Now I have the rest of the house to do....ugh...... :p

Happy September!

Well not much to blog about since I have pretty much spilled my guts in the last two entries. lol
My sister is doing good, still doing her dialysis but is home now and very happy to be in her own surroundings. She is such a trooper, she has to have 5 hours of dialysis every other day and although it totally exhaust her she never complains. Keep praying for her and her girls.

I don't think I shared our "new church" news with all of you. We had been attending the same church for a year now and was feeling God tugging us to make a move in a different direction. You know that feeling you have that your season is over but you are comfortable and being at the same place same time just seems to work for you even though you know inside it is time to move on, well that was us, it was time and after much pouting and sulling we did it. We are now attending a great church that has done wonders to us spiritually. The people are great and God is really moving there. Not that the people weren't great at our other church mind you, it is just different here, what we needed, like a cold drink of water after a long thirst. You know what I mean?

I have yet to get my sewing room organized but plan on working in it this coming week have a ton of stuff to get sewn and lots of projects I am excited to start. I will post pics of my sewing room when I get it photographable.

Hope everyone has a great 3 day weekend. Hugs................

Ok now for the rest of the story........

My son was shipped out to live with his bio father on the 9th of August as you all know, well that was not the end of the story for that week but the beginning. On the 10th I decided to take my 15 yr old daughter for a pregnancy test because she had missed her period and has been dating the same guy for a year now so I decided that she needed to get checked even though we had put her on the birth control shot a few weeks earlier which at the time they did a test and it came back negative but the nurse told us at that time that there was still a chance she could be pregnant and it was just too soon to read on their tests, oh no my daughter was sure she was not and so we went ahead and gave her the shot. Anyway, back to the 10th, my daughter kept reminding me of the previous test and how the nurse had told us that one of the side effects of the shot is to not have a period at all, and that it was not possible for her to be pregnant being on the shot and yada yada, well you know that motherly instinct you get, I had it, and boy was I right. She is pregnant will be 8 weeks on Moday. The test came back very positive and I thought she was going to faint when the nurse gave us the results. Apparently she was only about a week pregnant when she got the shot and that is why is showed up negative. OMG! I AM GONNA BE A GRANDMA! Yep I could have died right there. But I didn't and live has gone on and we are now preparing for a baby. The daddy is wanting to marry her and they are very much in love and yada yada. IDK which way to go. Do I let them marry and take care of this situation on their own, or do I raise another kid, which I had no plans of doing, my youngest just started kindergarten and I finally have my house to my self.
WOW! I am over the shock and after having a huge scare with her a few weeks ago and having to rush her to the doc for cramping and bleeding and getting to see the baby and the little heart beating inside her I have decided that I love her and I love what is happening inside her, I dont like it a bit but I love her and I know we will make it through this, I watched her cry with relief and amazement as the doctor showed us her baby and showed us the heart beating and gave us her due date and that melted my heart in more ways than one.

Please pray for us during this challenging time. So much has been going on with us that I dont know what is up or what is down anymore. All I know is that this is a season that we are going through and though we are being tested I know we will make it threw and will be stronger in the end. My heart is broken in so many pieces because of my sister, my son and now my daughter but I love them all and I will be supportive and caring and understanding as much as I can, I will never stop loving my children although my heart may ache because of them or their actions. I know a new life in this family would be quite a change after all the death we have had in the last few years. So with that please pray for my lil girl, her baby and her baby's daddy that God would join them in the way he sees fit, that all would go well with her pregnancy and delivery. Please pray for strength and understaning for her because she is so young her youth is now gone and she has had to become a women too soon.
Oh yeah and her due date is April 12,2010 and she has decided she is having a girl. lol..........

Update on my sister n stuff....

Hi everyone I know it has been a long time since my last blog but life has been craszy here, as usual......

My sister is doing well, better then we thought she would be especially since not even the docs thought she would live long upon her arrival at the hospital. She was very ill and her life was litteraly hanging by a thread, but with lots a prayer and tons on faith and a strongwill to live she is doing better and was sent home a few days ago. She is still doing her dialysis every other day and taking chemo and radiation but has gained some color back is now able to walk a little on her own and is home resting in her own surroundings. She still has a long way to go and recovery may never come totally but for now we are all just happy to see her smiling and laughing. She has been through so much and has bounced back twice from her death bed with all her doctors amazed at her strong will and determination to live.
Thank you all for your prayers and kind words.

Now onto my son. He is still with his father and has adjusted well as far as I know. I have missed him and my heart is still broken from all the pain he has caused our family. I speak to him every now and then but it always seems to end in a fight so for now I think it is best for us to have no communication between each other for awhile. Sounds crazy and hurtful and it is but my heart cannot take the person he has become and the disrepect he always seems to deal me so, I think distance and time and lots of mature growth on his side is the only way our relationship is ever going to mend. It is so painful to lose a child to rebellion and to know that no matter what you say or do you are always the bad guy. He is very ugly and mouthy, which he has been for years, but seems like it has gotten worse since he has left, my hubby says it is because he is not face to face with me so he thinks he can run his mouth all he wants and get away with it because I am further then arm reach of him so I can not reach over and knock him into next week for using foul language or copping an attitude. Makes me so angry, so hurt, so ashamed and confused. He seems to care only for himself and what makes his world go around. He has always been a very selfish child and the older he gets the worse it gets. I talked to him briefly tonight to let him know that I found out that he stole all of my mama's (God rest her soul) rings, even her and my daddys wedding rings. He just got ugly with me and denied it. He also stole my hubby's college grad ring which he has had for over 20 years. And he stole my hubby's aka rifle and his 9 mm stainless steel pistol, which was the reason he was sent away. When he was confronted with all of this he just got angry and violent. He has stole from us all his life but this was the last straw. Now that he is gone and we are having time to go through our things we are finding more and more stuff missing mostly jewlery, a diamond tennis braclet, diamond cross necklace, a sterling silver necklace, the list goes on and on. Before he left we noticed that he always had money to spend and were finding cigeret butts and empty pkgs out on our land ofcourse he denied it all and we were so sick of fighting that we would just clean them up, talk with him or ground him and move on. We found out about the guns being gone when some kids told my daughter that her brother had given them a couple of guns of their dads, sure enough she came home and told us and the guns were missing. My hubby went straight to the police and filed a report with my daughter and son their to tell their story about the missing guns. Unfortunitly my dd does not know the guys that told her they only knew her as James sister. He denied the whole thing and basically without the serial numbers the cops can do nothing. My dear husband has had these guns for years and years so we have been searching like crazy trying to find the paper work on them. Ugh........ my hubby found out that one of the guns is worth $4000 alone now and the other prob more and I think my son traded them for a few packs of smokes because they had no value to him execpt for what he wanted out of it.
Sorry for the rambling just needing to vent I guess. Anyway, please pray that God will guide him in his life and that some day he will change and repent for what he has done and actually be remorseful about it. We love him deeply but have chosen to remove him from our home which as a parent you should never have to do. If you cant trust your own family the child you bore and raised and loved then who can you trust?

I have tons of other news to share but I will give your ears a rest and save the rest for another blog.

Thank you all again for your kind words and prayers, keep praying we need all we can get.
Hugs, Kathy

Sister Update and more news

First of all I would like to say thank you to everyone that has been praying for my sister and her family.
Thursday we got news that my sisters cancer had caused her to get plasma cell Leukimia which is caused by the Muliple Meloma and the prognosis was not good. Later that eve my neice called and said my sister was asking that all of us come up there so she could talk with each of us. So off I went on a 2 hour drive at around 7:30 that night. When I arrived at the hospital they had moved her to the stem cell unit which is a quarintined unit. I was very amazed at how well she looked compared to the last time I had seen her which was only last weekend. She looked good. They had started her on dialysis for her kidney failure and was going to start chemo the following day. Everyone arrived there one after the other and when we were all settled my sister began talking to us about the possibility of her dieing which immediatly brought all of us to tears. She went on to say that she was not scared that she was at peace and ready to go home if that was God's will. She told each of us that she loved us and shared some stuff that she need to say to some of us individually. The whole thing was very heartbreaking but very serene. After she said all she needed she ask if she could pray over us and did so with such boldness and peacefulness. It was very beautiful.
The next day the chemo was started and blood work was taken before and after. That eve the doctor let us know that the cancer was responding to the chemo, her numbers before starting was 14000 and after chemo was down to 1000, not sure the term of the numbers he used but I do know it was related to her cancer cells so we were all very happy to hear that.
I stayed all weekend and during that time she went over her funeral wishes, her wishes for certain personal belongings to go to certain people, she discussed the music she wanted played at her funeral and what clothes she would like to be laid to rest in. This was a very difficult time for each of us and more so for her daughters but we all listened and took notes of her wishes. We cried and laughed and cried some more all weekend but, I can say that I left that hospital with peace in my heart and much respect for my sister. She is truely a strong lady. We are not sure if or for how long her cancer will hold out but I do know that the doc said this cancer was a rapid spreading cancer and it was everywhere already along with her other cancer but he also is very hopeful that her body will fight this and she will be a living miracle of God's mercy. Please continue to pray for all of us and for my sister to continue to be so strong and brave.

Other news. My 16 yo son has gone to live with his bio father. He has been very rebelious for several years now and has pretty much put our family through living hell. We love him with all our hearts and have forgivin him for all the hurt he has caused but felt that we needed to remove him from our home so we could heal and so hopefully he can mature while we are apart. This was one of the hardest decisions I have ever made as a mother but I had to set my feelings aside and do what was best for everyone in our home. He left today on a greyhound bus heading to Albuquerque NM. Please keep him in your prayers, this is a huge change for all of us including his father whom is single and has been kid free for 7 years. Please pray for peace in our home and for healing of our hearts, please pray for direction in my sons life and that God changes his heart and grows him in his love and guidence. Please pray for me as a mama who has had to lift her wing and free her child because letting go is so hard, I am filled with fear and worry but praying through it and standing on faith that all will end well and this will pass and someday we will look back and be thankful for the decision we made.

I love you all and think of you as my dear friends your prayers and encouragment means so much to me I need it now more than you will know. My heart is broken and my tears are at a constant stream but I know with your prayers and friendship I will make it through this valley and be standing on a mountain once again.

Very heart breaking post.

Sorry I have not blogged in awhile still getting back into the swing of things now that I am back to bein a stay at home mommy.
Just a quick post this time though. I have won a couple of giveaways here in bloggy land and am now the proud owner of a beautiful hand made, crocheted to be exact, purse and a pattern. I will blog with pictures of those as soon as I find time. But for now would just like to give a big Thank you to the ladies that had these giveaways, you know who you are, I will post about their blogs and my winnings asap.

Now onto the reason for the title of this blog. As some of you know I have lost both my parents. My daddy went home May 21,2006 and mama went home to meet him on October 14,2007 only a year and 5 months apart. Well a few months after we lost mama my middle sister started getting ill and her bones were starting to break and when I say starting to break I literally mean it just like that, as a matter of fact the reason she was admitted to the hospital was because during a doctors visit her arm just made a huge popping sound and she was rushed down to x-rays and her arm was broke. She was admitted and placed in ICU where test were ran. She was over 8 quarts low of blood and was almost on her death bed. They gave her blood and she started to look and feel better but found out that same day that she had Multiple Maloma a bone cancer and it was in the 3rd stage and there are only 4 stages of this cancer and the 4th stage is death. She began chemo and did very well actually exceptionally well you would have never known she was even on chemo. She had no hair loss, well very little and it was all on her legs and arm pits which was a blessing more than than a burden. She did chemo for several months and went back in for her last treatment and found out her cancer was in remission. PRAISE GOD was all we could say. And she was so happy to know she was out of the woods. Even though when she was her sickest she was ready to go home and be with the Good Lord and our mama.
She did well up until a couple of months when she went back in for a check up and found out her cancer was back and they told her that it was not good for it to come back a second time and sure enough it has been more so here in the last couple of weeks which I just found out about, and here in the last couple of days she has gotten worse, to the point of her not sleeping or eating and she is unable to walk across the floor without getting out of breath. I talked to her oldest daughter tonight and she told me that her mom looked really bad, no color, no appetite and her eyes are black underneth and sunk in. My neice also said she has been asking them to help her get arrangements made and they all feel like she is not going to make it much longer. She has a doctors appt. tomorrow and hopefully they will admit her and get her to feeling better.
Please keep all of us in your prayers, and say an extra one for her 2 daughters and grandkids they are taking this expecially hard. We have dealt with too much loss in the last couple of years and none of us want to do it again, if it is God's will. Her name is Debbie and your prayers are greatly needed. Thanks